New OB & Moving on!

I am very happy to report that I really liked the new OB. She is young, only 11 months out of residency. She trained under the high risk doctor I see. She's seen a lot of high risk patients in her residency and has delivered 4 sets of twins (vaginally, I might add) so far this year! She seems very knowledgeable and I just felt way more comfortable. She took time to answer my questions and concerns. I feel good about her working with my high risk doc because they already have a relationship (not to mention their offices are right next door). Since it's a small practice, office hours are a bit more limited but they always have available appointments since they are so new.

She did use a doppler to find the heartbeats. It's easy to find one heartbeat but a bit trickier to try to find two different heartbeats when their rate is similar. But, she thought that she found two! Also, this office draws blood in house so hopefully no more Quest for me! (YAY!)

My next appointment is June 13th with the high risk doctor. The weekly appointments are over :(  I will be 16 weeks then and there is a small chance we'd be able to find out the genders at that point if the babies are cooperating. My official gender scan is at 20 weeks.

So, this is probably the end of the road for this blog. I am 12 weeks and 5 days today, I can't believe I've made it here. Pregnancy still seems very surreal to me. It honestly feels like I've just been sort of sick and tired for the past few months and now I'm a little bloated. It feels like the ultrasound pictures can't possibly be mine. I am grateful to be here and a bit nervous for the road ahead. A twin pregnancy can bring more complications than a single pregnancy and being the researcher that I am can be good and bad (perhaps very bad for a worrier). But I could worry about a million things from the pregnancy to the next 60 years of my life and theirs, but I suppose you can't live life that way!

This blog has been an incredible outlet for me these past few months through this very trying journey. I was so happy to be able to blog about this for myself and for our family and friends who have provided so much needed support during this time. Thank you for that! It is incredibly lucky that it turned out the way it did, or I'd now be blogging about round 3 of IVF. I hope that these babies are born healthy and that I never have to take another drug or give myself another shot to get pregnant again. I really don't wish that on anyone.

As we being to "go public" with this, I still fear that one (or both?) of my little ones won't make it. But, we are out of the riskiest part in terms of miscarriage and now I can move my fears to pre-term labor with twins. The doctor said she just wants me to make it to 34 weeks at minimum, so that is October 20. That will be my date I am focused on!

I've learned a lot in the process about myself and my relationships. I've learned that having a child is not a given in life for everyone, and I have become very sensitive to this fact. I feel that because of this experience, I will be more grateful for even having a child, and I won't easily take it for granted. I haven't yet really thought too much about how overwhelming the sleepless nights with two babies will be because I am so consumed with the fact that I might actually get to have two babies! I have seen how supportive our family and friends are, and it has been so appreciated by us.

It's been a long road to get here and yet the journey is just beginning. I think we are ready! I will be updating more on pregnancy in the next few weeks on my regular blog. If you are interested in following and don't have the address, let me know and I will happily send it to you! :)

Love,
D, D, & the twins!