I am trying not to let this get me down. Once again, our embryos didn't make it far enough by the 6th day to be candidates for freezing. They made it farther than last time, but they need to be mature blasts to be frozen at this stage and they just aren't there.
If you get something to freeze, you get a "try" at getting pregnant without having going through most of hardest stuff: shots, monitoring, egg retrieval. It looks like our embryos just don't do well in the lab. It's hard to think about the fact that if this cycle doesn't work, I'd have to start completely over (starting with two weeks of birth control pills) and go through this again.
I am trying really hard to stay positive. There's no point in trying to "guard" myself at this point by thinking it's not going to work. I have so much invested in this emotionally that I will have a small mental breakdown if this doesn't work. So, if I already know that about myself, I might as well think this is going to work, right? Some days are harder than others. I would say not having ANYTHING to freeze out of the 6 embryos that were left is just kind of crappy. And again, I am reminded of where I am. I would give just about anything at this point to just get pregnant on my own without all this stuff. But if we continue to want a child, this is what I will continue to have to endure.
Time for me to lay down and visualize getting pregnant with twins... so I never have to go through this again.
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